Breaking up with someone might be a difficult task sometimes. We tend to cling to the past despite having renewed hope for the future. This poem is about this specific situation.
Something new has shown up in my life,
A new hope, a better one, than the one we had,
But I still can’t pull myself to go forward.
What kind of spell have you put over me?
I feel like our problems haven’t been addressed properly,
You said everything while I kept some hidden,
If only you knew the steps I had to take in order to live.
You act now like I had not seen your true colors,
And truth be spoken, it’s quite right.
I’ve written a story about the two of us,
You’ve read it and that’s how I found out that maybe I was wrong.
The new setting kick started something in me,
A chance to find someone who’ll put me first and not the way I did in your case,
But why can’t I just move on?
Is it fear of another rejection, maybe seeing something that isn’t there?
Is it just wishful thinking?
Do I see her as someone she’s not, only because I want to be loved so much?
Don’t you see how my love towards you created a whole new reality?
What part of I “love you” didn’t you understand?
Why did you go for a bad boy when I was always there for you?
You broke me apart, like love means nothing…
I have made sacrifices to understand your pain and help you get past it,
But your attention focused on abusing my care,
You were like a vampire draining my life force,
Because every time I tried doing something for you,
Things ended up not the way I would’ve wanted them too.
The universe was hostile to my feelings,
I felt its opposition concerning what I wanted,
Building fences I couldn’t climb,
Digging holes I couldn’t see,
All in a days work…
Clinging to the past, I find myself solitary,
With no one beside to comfort me,
Dreams have now become hopeless,
While harsh reality follows me senseless.
If you’re feeling moody and sappy about a recent breakup, do also check my following sad, love poem at this link.
Till next time,
Cristian